I was reading thru one of the parents’ blog and she was saying how she juz got her baby from AAE. Interestingly, she wrote “got from them”. Hahaha~~

Juz fyi, AAE is managed ENTIRELY by only ONE person. From sourcing of materials, creative to production, photography, editing, webby, handling of mail, emails etc…

Can u imagine? I had up to more than 40 orders once (2 weeks ago, that’s why I asked for more allowance time for remakes~ sorry parents :P)~ it’s crazy, I tell u~

However, I resigned from my 6 yrs job last Friday. And this is smthg I wanna share with you. It was a decision I’ve been struggling with, cos it’s a great job. It’s glamorous, it garners publicity~ But I grew tired of it~ it needs so much, so much from me, and I’m juz sapped~ Short term hols doesn’t help much~ and I can’t quit juz like that cos I’m the one payin all the house’s bills~ so last yr abt this time, I dabbled into jewelry making.

All this time, I was dragging myself to work~ I went into slight depression, my weight plummeted, I don’t smile as much anymore~ I don’t feel happy even though I’m doing fine at work. I wanna think everything’s fine but inside my heart, I know it’s not fine. I told myself I should be satisfied, but felt hollow inside…

I cont’d with this art~ And funny enough, interest evolved into a decent part-time work~ So after one yr, I took the plunge~ 

Although with the meagre amt I earn from this interest means that I have to keep my eating budget to $6 a day, reduce all entertainment expenditure (movies, accessories, clothes, music) to nearly zero (I haven’t bought a single new clothing/accessories for more than 4 mths), and I’m  afraid I won’t survive after a few mths~

Still, I think I’m on the right track~

If you are struggling with any decisions at this point, I juz wanna say, Have courage. We may not know why this is happening to us now. We may never know even ten yrs down the road. But have courage. Meantime, Take care of yourself. :)

Love, Maddie